THE RESURRECTION (7) - FRESH MANNA

Twilight Time.

2Timothy 4:6-8, ‘For I am already being poured out like a drink offering; and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race; I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which is the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day – and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for His appearing.’

This is one of the saddest parts of Apostle Paul’s epistles when he had arrived at this twilight time of his life. It always touches my heart when I come to this part of the scriptures and I would break down and cry. His friends had deserted him and even back stabbed him and played him out.

In his heart he knew he was going to die soon after many struggles to free himself from jail. And in this final letter to Timothy he poured himself out to him. He was just delivered from the lion’s mouth and was feeling very lonely and discouraged asking his friends to visit him. ‘Do your best to come to me quickly…’ (2Tim. 4:9).

He knew inside him that he was not the Paul he used to be; age had caught up with him and his body was weak; and when you are weak you will feel cold easily. He was asking for his cloak. (2Tim.4:13). Winter was approaching and the autumn leaves were falling.

Although he was in his four-walled prison cell, in his solitude he had written some of the best epistles used in the new testaments that had touched and changed millions of souls around the Globe. His soul was now matured and ripened; and brought to boil with his vast experience, he could sit back to write the true application of God’s words in the lives of his beloved followers.

Hey!!! This man who had impacted many nations and people during those times, should meet such an end, is unimaginable, according to the standards of the world. He could have been a Prime Minister of a country in our times or an emperor during his time. Although his life was totally poured out and sacrificed; he was finally martyred in the hands of the Romans.

But in the spirit realm, he was destined for greatness, glory in heaven. He left a legacy to be remembered through all eternity.

When I gazed at my yawning calendar for 2009, and my weekends are all opened till the end of year except for an evangelistic meeting in Kuching on Father’s Day, I know it is time; God is preparing to slow down my traveling ministry. Perhaps He has seen my sufferings and would not want me to suffer further in the dispensation of my duties because He loves me. I was thinking to myself, maybe He wants to take me home soon.

Although I am a grain of sand along the beach compared to Apostle Paul or other ministers of God, I have been obedient and am willing; just like King David when God prepared him in the wilderness killing bears and lions. All I have to do is to be faithful and do what my hands find to do; this will be my portions in this latter days.

Just like Apostle Paul, age is also catching up. After 15 years of dialysis I had mentioned earlier, my body has been weakened and I really do not know how long the medical supplements will keep me going. And it sickens my heart to see finances by the thousands going into the drain every month paying for my medical bills. I am like a living corpse sustained by the provision and anointing of the Lord to bring HIM more Glory to His name. I am also approaching the final corner before the finishing line. I have often prayed and asked God to use me to set a final blaze of Glory for HIM before He takes me home.

I nearly died many times during dialysis, when I over drank water and my lungs were so congested with water that I could not breath. I would be fighting for my life for hours and passed out. When I woke up and realized that I was still alive, I felt cheated that I had experienced death and not die. If not, I would have been in paradise; no more tears.

Dying is so common to me now, it had happened so many times before. I was like a dog crossing the busy street. Suddenly a lorry running at high speed had to hit the brakes when the driver saw the dog crossing the street. There was a loud screeching of tyres and a lot of noise, the dog yelled loudly and there was great commotion from the people watching. Then when the dust settled and the people watching became quiet, the dog rose up and found itself still alive, and quickly went on its way rejoicing and praising God all the way. I live under God’s grace and mercy all the time. His mercies are new every morning, new every morning, great is Thy faithfulness O Lord, great is Thy faithfulness.

Even with the little things I had done for God, my life, talents, skills and abilities had also being poured out like wine to gladden people’s hearts, and my life had been broken like bread, feeding their hungry souls. Like wine that is poured out and like bread that is broken. I am now surviving on my past reputation.

Friends too have left me and I have left some too, because of our different calling, attitudes and commitment now. I realized that God wants me to live a more separated life than before. Except for my family members, I really don’t know who to call even when I need to talk to someone, sometimes; although a lot of people know me. My grandchildren have been a great source of joy and encouragement to me. Praise the Lord!!!

Yes!!! I am at this crossroad again. ‘I cannot die yet; my songs and testimonies at the websites need me to be alive so that it will make a greater impact for God’s glory,’ I always bargained with God, ‘But not my will but Yours being done.’

I remembered those times before my kidney operation; I did not know what to do except to wait, and finally God put all the jigsaw puzzles together and brought a resurrection to my ministry. Perhaps God will give me a continuation of this resurrection of my ministry without travelling. Amen!!!

It is in the move of God to be always progressing to fulfill His plans for our lives but man prefer their comfort zones.


Fresh Manna

While waiting patiently for God’s answer, I took a greater step of faith further and began to declare my total surrender to Him. I said, ‘God, from now on, I will totally depend on You. All my insecurities and fears of my life I give to You. I will stop praying for my physical healing, my ministries and my finances anymore and leave it in Your mighty hands. Just carry me through.’ Amen.

One early morning I was woken up a bit earlier and I smelt the fragrance of a new season in the air. And the voice of God spoke out loud and clear through the various passages of scriptures, as I sat down for my daily devotion.

Rev.10:5-8, ‘Then the angel I had seen standing on the sea and on the land raised his right hand to heaven. And he swore by Him who lives for ever and ever, who created the heavens and all that is in them, the earth and all that is it; and the sea and all that is in it, and said, “There will be no more delay! But in the days when the seventh angel is about to sound his trumpet, the mystery of God will be accomplished, just as He announced to His servants the prophets.” Then the voice that I heard from heaven spoke to me once more: “Go, take the scroll that lies open in the hands of the angel who is standing on the sea and one the land.”’

God is in a hurry!!! There will be no more delay and we are at the eleventh hour of the coming of the Lord Jesus. It is time to reveal and accomplish the mystery of His end time plans for humanity. Proverb 25:2, ‘It is the glory of God to conceal a matter…’

This is the season to be revealed. Other generations of people in the world did not have such privilege; if God does not do it now, there will be no other times left. This He will reveal to His prophets, His servants who are receptive to His revelations. I believe God had kept the secret all through the history of the bible to reveal His ‘end time’ secrets until now, in such a time as this, so that it can be fulfilled.

Rev.10:9-11, ‘So I went to the angel and asked him to give me the little scroll. He said to me, “Take it and eat it. It will turn your stomach sour, but in your mouth it will be as sweet as honey.” I took the little scroll from the angel’s hand and ate it. It taste as sweet as honey in my mouth, but when I had eaten it, my stomach turned sour. Then I was told, “You must prophesy again about many peoples, nations, language and kings.”’
Eating the scroll symbolizes accepting the scroll’s message, taking it in. That message is sweet, because it comes from God, and bitter because it proclaims the truth and harsh judgments.

Remember we are now beyond salvation, God has spoken to His servants to preach the perfect truth from His Heart and look through His Eyes, for His people has longed been majoring on the minors and ‘minor-ring’ the majors; focusing too much on things that do not bear eternal fruits for God and for themselves; but on things that are temporal (earth-eye-view); that’s why I understand now that He has to trim the branches that do not produce good fruits.

You see, the full gospel of God is like a large diamond; it has many facets. The facets represent the ministries of God and the various sizes of the facets stand for their importance in God’s sight. The larger facets are supported by the smaller facets that made the whole diamond sparkles and shines.

A lot of smaller supporting ministries today have come to lead in the fore front over-shadowing the major important ministries of God. Sometimes Christians think that the ministry of prosperity and physical healing are the only reason they have come to know God although prosperity and healing of the soul are more important in God’s perfect agenda. Majoring on the minors and ‘minor-ring’ the majors.

God has called each minister to be a specialist in his own field to represent a facet of the full gospel of God. Although they will challenge the people and preach as if that is the full gospel; it is only when all the ministries come together, then it becomes the body of the full gospel of God. Just like in 1Cor. 12:12, ‘The body is a unit, though it is made up many parts, and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ.’ Each ministry is like the hands and feet and head of the body. That is the balance.

It has always been my burden, to bring the harvested corn into the storehouse of God. This is my calling for now. Many corns have been harvested and have come into the Kingdom but they have been left at that condition for a long time. They need to be processed and sanctified before the Bridegroom will come for His spotless bride. I will join all the other saints in concentrating on this job for now, through my writing and my preaching in this season of God. Hallelujah!!!

2Timothy4:2-3, ‘Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage – with great patience and careful instruction. For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears to hear…But keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry. (v5)’ I will still continue to be an evangelist and continue to win souls for the Lord through my testimonies.

Churches must also be in season with the move of God, if not they will be left behind and become dead, traditional and ritualistic churches. They put God in a box and expect Him to use the same method all the time. Again, the Spirit of God is always on the move, progressing and those who are on fire for God are those who soar with every waves of the winds of revival. When God stops don't give up, wait for the next new waves of His Glory, He is the master of all creativity. Bless His name forevermore.

Daniel also had a similar experience as Apostle John in Revelation concerning the angel. God confirmed it with me, the scriptures from Daniel 12:9-10, ‘Go your way, Daniel, because the words are closed up and sealed until the time of the end. Many will be purified, made spotless and refined, but the wicked will continue to be wicked. None of the wicked will understand, but those who are wise will understand.’

Hey!!! Wait a minute!!! You may ask. How will you be able to preach to the nations? You cannot travel.

This is when God showed me to start a blog and let my fingers do the walking and talking.
In the quietness of my four-walled room, like a prison cell away from the maddening crowd, I could be able to churn out messages after messages in the comfort of my home. I called this blog, ‘Fresh Manna Ministries’. Since I started a month ago, I already have about 700 visits. Praise the Lord!!! No need to beg for sponsors, no printing and postage, no distribution and airfares and saves time and finances.

Thank God for air-cons and a soft mattress to sleep on; and a good computer. Here, God will begin to speak to me and I will release it into my blog; and through the press of a finger, my church-at- large all over the world will be blessed with my new messages. Again I say; from my room to the nations. I will be at home and if anything happens, my hospital is five minutes away; safe and sound. This is just the beginning; maybe He will allow me to help set a blaze of glory for Him before He takes me home. I have overcome again.

Most of my ministries are now focus on the internet; the songs, the testimonies and the fresh messages will be combined and be controlled at the tip of my fingers. Again I say it, this was what Jesus meant by ‘greater things we can do when He goes to the Father’.


Destined for Greatness

Rom. 8:29, ‘For those God foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brothers.’

Dear beloved of God, you have all been destined for greatness in heaven. Before the world began, you were on His mind. He has predestined and written out your lives on earth for you to accomplish through your years on earth. You have the final say; choice is your trump card. Will you choose God and obey and be blessed? Will you allow the pleasures of the world to side track your calling and deprive you of your rewards in eternity? Will it be a case of missed opportunities for glory in heaven before the great white throne where Jesus has to wipe away your tears in heaven? (Rev.20:11)

For night time will be coming soon and there will be no more delay and no more work to do in the night and He will come like a thief. Like the other five virgins waiting for the bridegroom, it will be too late for them to buy more oil so that they can meet the Bridegroom. Get ready, what are you waiting for?

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